Where to even begin. The last few months have been a lot harder than I thought they would be. I am glad I had my surgery, just thought recovery would of been better than it is. I have never had this much muscle and soft tissue pain after a surgery before. I don’t want to be all whiney and woe is me. That is why I haven’t blogged.
One thing I will say is I really understand that when you are in constant pain that it plays with your mind. Even before surgery I was very active and was able to do a lot of things. Now I can’t walk around the block with out a cane. I am the type of person who likes to get things accomplished. I have not accomplished anything in some while. I thought when I went back to work it would help. It didn’t. I thought I could jump right back in and pick up right were I left off. Just made me feel more off of my game. Brain doesn’t function at the speed I need it to. My brain is even out of shape.
So, I feel lost, confused, disengaged. I have had no inspiration to write. Today’s blog came from our wonderful Jackie Wolven who thought of me and made me smile. First time in a while it was a true smile. She wanted to know how I am really doing. Well, I am on my way and I will be okay. Just not the path I thought I was going to take, but this must be the path I was meant to.
I think I need a dose of the ocean, or of a Great Lake. I always feel better with sand between my toes.
So take care and be safe out there everyone. Hopefully I won’t be gone that long this time.