Where to even begin. The last few months have been a lot harder than I thought they would be. I am glad I had my surgery, just thought recovery would of been better than it is. I have never had this much muscle and soft tissue pain after a surgery before. I don’t want to be all whiney and woe is me. That is why I haven’t blogged.
One thing I will say is I really understand that when you are in constant pain that it plays with your mind. Even before surgery I was very active and was able to do a lot of things. Now I can’t walk around the block with out a cane. I am the type of person who likes to get things accomplished. I have not accomplished anything in some while. I thought when I went back to work it would help. It didn’t. I thought I could jump right back in and pick up right were I left off. Just made me feel more off of my game. Brain doesn’t function at the speed I need it to. My brain is even out of shape.
So, I feel lost, confused, disengaged. I have had no inspiration to write. Today’s blog came from our wonderful Jackie Wolven who thought of me and made me smile. First time in a while it was a true smile. She wanted to know how I am really doing. Well, I am on my way and I will be okay. Just not the path I thought I was going to take, but this must be the path I was meant to.
I think I need a dose of the ocean, or of a Great Lake. I always feel better with sand between my toes.
So take care and be safe out there everyone. Hopefully I won’t be gone that long this time.
3 comments
gina
March 12, 2013 at 9:04 pm (UTC -5) Link to this comment
Hope you’re back to feeling better soon! I can SO relate {almost}. Thom’s hip surgery didn’t go quite as well as we’d hoped and two surgeries later he’s still not where he should have been three months post surgery.
Keep your head up…it will get better!
Grippi
March 12, 2013 at 9:16 pm (UTC -5) Link to this comment
Thanks Gina. I hope he gets to feeling better? What did he have done?
gina
March 26, 2013 at 6:53 pm (UTC -5) Link to this comment
Total hip replacement. And, his knee on the same leg needs replacing as well. And then, an infection threatened the new hip and there was a possibility that it would have to come out and he’d have to be in a nursing home for 6-8 weeks, then another hip surgery. But, they were able to reopen him up, clean out the infection, and leave the hip in. He’s doing MUCH better now and just stopped using the walker and is using a can and practicing walking without a limp. It’s slow going but it’s forward motion.